and i realised, just one lie could destroy everything one had taken so long to build.
i'm sorry if i've been giving you such a hard time. maybe i just ain't good enough. maybe this whole thing is just fake. and just maybe, we should end it all. i can't believe you told her that .. i can't believe you lied, really can't. you know when i found out you did, i thought i was having a very bad nightmare. and when i used the computer, i kept hearing you call me. "baby, baby, baby .." i turned back. three times. but i did not see you.
you didn't even look guilty after lying to me. how could you.
all those reasons you gave me for lying to me, they didn't convince me, not at all.
all i know is, if you had chosen not to lie to me, i wouldn't have been so heartbroken. it's so heart shattering you know .. the mere thought that you did lie to me. i highly doubt i would have been angry if you had told me the truth, but even if i did get angry, i wouldn't be .. depressed.
you lied to me over such a simple issue. why did you, could you tell me please. you know, just by lying to me over such a stupid issue, it breaks any trust that i had placed in you. and there was so much of it .. so much that it hurts me real bad now.
if i didn't go over today, this lie wouldn't have been discovered right? just this alone makes me feel that you could have lied to me many other times. just that i was unaware.
why ..
你的爱已经不同。 我再也不懂怎样面对这样的爱。
Prelude
all my life, i've been searching for you
and i wonder if you've found me too
